The Ex...

Dear Ex,

Your an Ex for a reason don't really have much to say to you.....

No longer yours,

Tish

:)

The Stranger

Dear Stranger,

Due to my anti social attitude I don't have many encounters with strangers, but here goes, Dear McDonald's clerk, The sausage mcmuffin you served me yesterday was delicious. The coffee was Great but the best part was sitting outside eating breakfast with my husband no kids just us. Thanks for the start of a great Sunday. 

Sincerely,

The lady who ordered a sausage mcmuffin and a coffee at 10:30 on Sunday morning :)

Dreams.....

Dear Dreams,

Why have you been so vivid lately? Please go away so I can sleep, I don't like being shot at, I don't like running around like a crazy person, I don't like dreaming about house hunting I do that all day.  If I must have vivid dreams, Make them nice, let me dream about the ocean, the beach. I do like when my mom visits my dreams she hasn't in awhile.  Dear god please take away the "I'm back in high school" dream. I did high school, it was alright don't need to go back. So please dreams please let me sleep in peace tonight!

Restlessly yours,

Tish

(not sure if this was what the list meant as far as dreams but it was the first thing that came to mind.)

The sibling

I have got to catch up!! Here I go!

Dear Ben,

I write to you because I don't get to see or talk to you enough! I don't know if you care or not but I am SO proud to be your sister! You have an amazing family and a little girl I adore! I only wish you lived closer so we could raise our families together! Also I have very complicated feelings about your job lol. I am so proud that you took the call so many (including myself) are to cowardly to answer. I am so proud that you are protecting our country and fighting for our freedoms and I can't thank you enough for all that you sacrifice to give us the peace of mind to sleep at night. However I just wish you could do all that from behind a desk! I know better I know that isn't you anyone paying attention from the time you could ask for GI joe's would know better than to think you have "just a job".  So Thank you thank you thank you Erik calls you Uncle Ben the marmeen. We love our marmeen :) Kiss your baby girl from her auntie! And buy Jordan some shoes or flowers or something.  Love you brother! See you soon.

Love,
Tish

The Parent

OK so I didn't get to do this last night so I will do one this  morning and one tonight that should catch me up.

Dear Mom,

I will be writing to you on a later date so I will give this one to dad OK?


Dear Dad,

Where do I begin? I have gotten more from you than I think is even possible.  Greg says the Workman genes are so strong they can transfer via osmosis! I really don't know where to start without rambling so excuse me if i ramble.  You taught me not to take any crap from anybody, you taught me to stand up for myself and my family.  You taught me that DNA doesn't make that family. You taught me how to ride a bike, You taught me the lesson of " Not putting your foot down" on a quad lol. You taught me that you have to work hard to get what you want and most of the time you have to work harder than others. You gave me a strength that cannot be taken.  You gave me a chance to have the greatest dad, when the "sperm Donor" just bailed. You taught me not to listen to anyone else and make my own decisions a lesson that got difficult as I became a teenager :) (I think you meant don't listen to anyone else but you..) More recently you have taught me that you are made of Teflon, and you are stronger and more resilient that I thought anyone could be. You have taught me that it doesn't matter what your age you need to be flexible and prepare for your entire life to change in a blink.  You have shown me that a person is never done growing and becoming a better version of themselves.  You taught me the importance of manners and good behavior. Your parenting has made me a good parent.  You taught me that there are times when the best thing to do is just keep your mouth shut even when someone deserves a good ass chewing! You also taught me that sometimes you just have to say what is on your mind and leave it at that.  I can't thank you enough for everything you have given me I think the only way to make it right is to pay it forward and give it to my kids.  Love you Dad!

-Tish

The Crush

I went with the biggest "crush" of my teenage years.

Dear Danny,

I crushed you for three years, I don't know many girls who didn't crush on you. I drove my friends crazy talking about you.  I signed your last name with my first name over and over and over and over again. I just KNEW that we were supposed to be together. Even when you moved away I still crushed you.  You caused me fights in school when you moved back. Like I said EVERYONE crushed you. Imagine my excitement when you asked me out and we started dating. OH I thought all of my dreams have come true! unfortunately you were a terrible boyfriend and dating you was not nearly as "great" as I had built up over the last three years. So Danny you were my "biggest" crush but you were also my last crush, I knew that guys were never as great as you built them up to be in your head. I knew this until I met a guy that exceeded what I thought he could be so i married him.  So Thank you Danny. 

-Tish  

Best Friend

This is an easy one!

Dear Catherine,

Did I think when we met in the second grade that you would be the friend that would last twenty "something" years? Probabaly not but I am glad you were! I don't exactly remember our first meeting but  I do remember all of the trouble we got in as kids, how our parents allowed us to keep being friends I still don't know. From calling ourselves out for class, yup one right after the other, not our brightest moves, to skipping school all together to go skiing. So much trouble So  much fun anymore you are more like a sister than a friend.  So there it is the Best friend!

So My sister in law got this idea from a friend of hers  and I think it is a pretty awesome idea so i'm totally stealing it! :)   (hope you don't care Jordan haha) Basically you are supposed to write a "letter" to each of these people explaining how they touched/changed your life, one a day for 30 days. I'll start tomorrow! :)  (this could be hard because some of these people don't really exist for me.)

Day 1 - Your Best Friend
Day 2 - Your Crush
Day 3 - Your Parents
Day 4 - Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 - Your Dreams
Day 6 - A Stranger
Day 7 - Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 - Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 - Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 - Someone you don't talk to as much as you'd like
Day 11 - A deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 - The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 -Someone you wish you could forgive
Day 14 - Someone you've drifted away from
Day 15 - The person you miss the most
Day 16 - Someone that's not in your state/country
Day 17 - Someone from your childhood
Day 18 - The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 - Someone that pesters your mind - good or bad
Day 20 - The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 - Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 - Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 - The last person you kissed
Day 24 - The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 - The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 - The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 - The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 - Someone that changed your life
Day 29 - The person that you want to tell everything to, but are too afraid to
Day 30 - Your reflection.

First day of school!

Erik started Kindergarten today, and so it begins. Autumn is in her first year of middle school, she is playing the Alto Sax in band and also playing volley ball. Christian is playing basketball again this year, Megan wants another round of tennis lessons, I have taken on two more kids to babysit, oh and we are selling our house and moving in the next 6 weeks! Between driving two kids to two different schools across town showing our house and working all day I have to pack our house! (Thank GOD Greg took care of the garage for me!) So needless to say my calender is F U L L! I have done a pretty good job of juggling everything so far,  lets hope it stays that way!

I have a pretty big carrot in front of me right now! We are leaving for a Jack Johnson concert at the beginning of October! Just Greg and I! We are extremely excited, got a smoking deal on our "hotel" I put hotel in parenthesis because we are staying at McMenamins in Forest Grove and they are not like traditional hotels. So two nights away just the two of us! ahhhh I can't wait! It will be a nice break!

This latest chapter in our lives has taught me that things change so quickly and we cannot put things off any longer, no more I'll start saving next month, no more oh we will pay those off eventually, I think Greg and I have agreed to bust our bums to get ourselves in a better situation overall so we don't have to worry so much about, well..... everything. Good lessons have been learned, New perspective has been gained. I think this year for new years eve I am going to have a "SUCK IT 2010" party. Who's coming?  :)

Back in our own hands, and school days!!

After being on the emotional roller coaster my life has been for the last several months, I feel like we finally have our life back in our hands,  very soon we will no longer be tied to anyone else, counting on anyone else to make the right decision. We are in control of our own destiny! It feels GOOD! Of course I am a little scared, and worried because well, that is what I do. But after spending the last 4 years depending on someone else to get their bills paid so OUR credit doesn't suffer, I finally feel FREE!! freedom is scary, but oh so exciting. We have been looking at all our options, and will make the best decision we can for our family. It is great to know that we answer to no one but us! I think with this freedom other feelings will fade away, resentment, hatred, etc.. Now don't get me wrong I said FADE not go away, it takes a LOT to make me dislike someone, and when that day comes there is no going back especially when there is no respect involved any longer. I look forward to the day when the move is done and we can sit in our home, or back yard (ahhhhhh back yard) and.....just.....be. Already things have gotten better, just knowing that our days here are numbered helps a lot.  Having an answer and a direction and a plan is all I have needed apparently. (not surprising beings I am a teeny bit controlling) But I get to take steps forward and that means so much to me. I always have to be moving forward.

Speaking of forward, Erik went to school today and we met his teacher, she is very nice and he seemed to really like his classroom. I have high hopes for this year! A lot of new exciting things going on around us! And it is in our hands to make it the best we can! We will no longer make the mistakes of the past again! good things :)

"in my next thirty years"

The last day of my 20's. So far I have packed some boxes, painted my tows and talked to my best friend. Not a bad way to spend it! If only my hubby was home. I have a lot to be thankful for, a job I love that allows me to stay home with my son. A husband that couldn't be any better if I dreamed him up. Good friends around me, a family that sticks together through it all, and four wonderful children! I haven't been the best version of myself lately, but now I will be.  I am a very lucky girl, there is a new chapter opening up in front of me and I am excited at the chance to take our lives back into our own hands and control our own destiny again.  There is some sadness that the last chapter is closing but more good I think is coming of it.  I still worry because that is what I do, but I also have a smile again which is nice!

I deleted my older blogs because they were not representing me as I am, they were rants, angry moments that I needed to let out, and probably shouldn't have put out there for the world to read, I am not an angry person. dorky, maybe even a little "dumb" lol but not angry. So if anyone actually reads this and was wondering that is why.

I talked to Erik's kindergarden teacher yesterday and we are going to meet her and see his classroom on Tuesday I still can't believe that my baby is going to school in just about 10 days! It is kind of scary knowing that now the world will have its influence on my child. I am confident that we chose the right school for him, and have the utmost faith in the staff there so we were lucky in that aspect! It is still strange. He is excited to be going!

Well I suppose I had use my time a little better while the kids are  napping and start cleaning out my closet. (literally not figuratively, I have a lot of shoes lol)  :)